At the age of 18 I felt the Soul of Auraura Freedom, my firstborn come through my dreaming. Her energy was bold and determined, she knew I was her mama and would not leave me alone.
Her presence stayed with me for around a year before I because so annoyed that I made a deal with her. If she found the right father for her, then I would give up whatever I was doing to journey bringing her through.It worked, because her energy left after that contract was made. You see, I've always felt connected to something bigger, I've always trusted that my life has been of service to Truth and Love, to fulfil some kind of prophecy that I figure out as I go. HA!
When I became pregnant for the first time at 21 years, it wasn't received well by my partner or family. It was actually quite traumatic, and as much as I tried to put on a strong face, it hurt. I felt alone, scared and unsupported. Despite the heavy emotional pain I was carrying, I wanted to know all the ins and outs of pregnancy and birth. I researched everything from the good to the bad so that I could prepare myself.
I had my hopes set on a homebirth, because something in me KNEW so deeply that birth didn't have to happen in a hospital, because I wasn't sick. Being so young and petite I had this constant fear that I was too small and that homebirth wouldn't be safe for me, plus the only local midwife that attended homebirths was a man that gave me the heeby jeebies! So I had a natural birth at a rural birthing centre which fortunately for me, was run by Midwives with continuity of care.
The labour was long and drawn out, over 24hrs and was incredibly exhausting. As much as I felt connected to my baby, I felt so blocked, and I was already 10 days past my "due" date. I didn't know at the time, that I was carrying a lot of resistance and emotional blocks, which looking back with the wisdom I have now, I can see why my birthing experience, bringing Auraura into the world happened the way it did.
It was intense and cathartic, and I did it, naturally. With the hormone surge post birth, I remember thinking that I wanted to become a Midwife. The transition was beautiful though I still felt alone and out of my depth as a new mum, especially because I lived rurally, with not much of a social life outside of being a stay at home mother. There were many, many dark times and I thought I was the only one that had those thoughts, I felt like I was stumbling through the dark, with no guiding light.
There were times I thought I was broken.
I had lost the very fabric of who I was, dissolved in this overwhelming and consuming role as Mother, to this beautiful blue eyed baby girl.
Then... my journey lead me to experience the intensity of life as a single mum and the weight of Motherhood hit me hard, especially as an aspiring Visionary Artist.
I died inside so many times, but I learned a lot.
I also found ways to re-ignite my Spirit and sense of Self.
Motherhood is a profoundly Spiritual Journey like no other...
Six years later, I felt Maia come through my womb, and the depth of my Sacred Feminine work was realised. All of a sudden I knew I had to switch my focus from art to helping women access their inner wisdom and embody themselves fully.
As I had matured into my deep spirituality and trust in my body, I freebirthed Maia Lily at home in the same room she was conceived. I prepared myself emotionally and mentally for the labour of love, and I firmly believe this was the key difference in a positive result. I was able to drop into the stillness of the moment, and breathe baby through in blissful connection and altered states of consciousness, to access the shamanic realms of birth where I was gifted some profound truths to share with women who were ready to help change the world...
One peaceful birth at a time.
That birth was incredibly liberating and empowering, and whilst I know that unassisted birthing is not every woman's ideal choice, it is a perfectly valid and safe option for many with the right support and preparation. Even though I was incredibly clear without a shred of fear in my mind or body, what I experienced around me, was a bombardment of fear coming at me from all directions, trying to persuade me from my very grounded decision to birth at home on my own.
Learning to trust my body and Claim my role as a birth keeper enabled me to access some potent wisdom within the birthing field. What came through me in that birth, helped me to create my Wisdom School and set me on my path of helping to empower hundreds of women around the world to access their inner wisdom and power as a Sovereign Being.
2.5 years later I freebirthed Lucah at home in my Sacred Womb Temple space where I would facilitate women's circles and retreats. With just my partner by my side, I was able to experience the depth of intimacy and partnership, in union with the Beloved as we both held space for our daughter to come through.
On Valentines day, I entered into the silent stillness of the moment, gathered my baby from the Spiritual Realms and breathed her through with gentle grace and the sweetness of love and gratitude for life.
My son Zenith was freebirthed safely at home also, and after an intensely quick 60min labour and dealing with shoulder dystocia, I am so proud to have been able to tune into my body and trust my intuition to deal with the problem safely on my own.
I am an advocate for natural, primal birth and I am a freebirthing mother, though I know that this type of birthing experience is not for everyone, and so my focus is to help mothers feel empowered in making safe choices.
All of my babies were born Lotus, with the umbilical and placenta left intact, enabling the most gentle start to life.
My experiences of birth are one of joy, beauty, bliss, pleasure and deep connection. Each birth was an initiation into the depths of my souls wisdom. Each birth and baby has revealed new facets of myself, uncovered some powerful medicine and creativity I wish this for EVERY birthing mother and mother to be. Which is why I have created this course.
Working intimately with Women as a Facilitator and Mentor, I have the opportunity and honour to listen to many stories. A collective theme that I noticed was one of birth trauma, shame and disconnection from the birthing journey and motherhood. Mothers described how they felt invisible within the "system" and how this trauma stayed with them. So many women feeling let down from an unnecessary and often coerced Caesarean Section and struggling with the emotions and confusion from their experience trying to figure out what went "wrong".
Through my signature practice, WombSong I have witnessed this deep psychological and emotional trauma being released, with the intense anger, rage and deep hurt that is often locked up behind the story... and women finally feeling free from the pain and grief that has been carried in the womb.
Due to the nature of my work, I walk with women through some very "dark" places, to find the light within, I knew that I had to share my wisdom with birthing mothers, because I know whole heartedly when we view birth as a Sacred Rite of Passage and Initiation, it shifts the whole constructs and beliefs around labour, birth and your role as a mother.
It connects us with Divine Love and Creation Energy.
Maiden to Mother, Sacred Pregnancy, Birth Shaman and Sacred Postpartum are my hearts offering in support and solidarity for all mother's on this path of knowing that Peace on Earth begins with birth and that this is THE most important work in the world, no question!
If you've been searching for something like this, if it speaks to you, I invite you to journey with me